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Bliss

A book, a cup of tea, and two cats on the bed, the sound of happy kids downstairs.

There are things that aren’t just right, exactly. The tea is not the tea I wish I had (I have something Chinese; I wanted English tonight). But it’s better than nothing, actually pretty good. The kids are watching tv and have been now for hours, including through dinner. Not my ideal, but we’re all exhausted and school starts soon and I’m just going to let it go. I should have gone running tonight. Or last night. Or the night before. But I did not, I did not, and I did not. Maybe I will tomorrow.

But it’s all okay. It’s better than okay. It is bliss.

I am under pressure at work. I am assembling my dossier for promotion. It sucks my life away. It isn’t bad when I am in the middle of a task—I can actually get sort of into it. But it needs to be very long and very good and it takes so much time. And we don’t have ample childcare and I still want summer to be fun and airy and I just can’t have everything! Still, it will be done by September 4, when it is due to be submitted. It’s just a question of exactly when I will squeeze everything in, alongside planning for classes to start in just a few weeks. But it will happen because that’s the good thing about deadlines.



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